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april 2019 — twirling pages

farewell, april


in my 20+ years of life, i nonetheless don’t understand why the passing of time shocks me, but here we’re. (how is it already virtually summer time????? wtf????????) ANYWAY. nearly all of april was consumed getting back into the swing of things.

after my two months of touring, coming again house was rewarding. dwelling here my entire life, i used to continuously complain about LA and would dream of leaving and shifting far distant. nevertheless, i’m beginning to love and respect this city. i obtained back to educating yoga repeatedly (much love for my omies), inspired once more to Make Content material (and plans to do it), and allowed myself to take pleasure in issues. i went to soul cycle with certainly one of my favorite internet associates, celine, many occasions; i met up with linh & emmanuel, who are so fantastic; and i did a LOT of spring cleansing – physically and mentally.

i spent plenty of time reflecting (more than ordinary because i already mirror A LOT regularly) and am lastly in a spot the place i feel okay. priscilla asked me some time in the past if i felt comfortable the place i used to be, and i might truthfully say sure. isn’t that wild?!! in fact there are ups and downs, however for probably the most half, i’m having fun with the current moment and excited for the longer term.


WHERE IS THIS YEAR GOING WTF. identical to xan, i can’t consider it’s already the top of april! this implies i have less than a month left in my junior yr of highschool, and that i’m about to be consumed in the tornado of school admissions. (*yike*) this yr has really gone by in a whirlwind, and i am so unhappy to say goodbye to my senior buddies at the end of the month. 🙁

the most important thing about this month is that i researched, wrote, and edited a 26 web page historical past paper. primarily, this paper is a large rite of passage at my faculty for juniors, and i am past ecstatic that i turned it in!! i printed out my child and turned it in on might first, and it was so great to see all my work come into fruition in that moment. (btw i wrote about ACT UP, the AIDS activist group from the eighties. it allowed me to indulge the art-loving part of myself and now have an excuse to scream my help for the queer group lmao. let me know if you would like me to talk about my experience with this undertaking more on the blog!)

i took the ACT check earlier this month, and regardless of not all the time doing THAT nicely on standardized testing, i did rather well, and that i won’t even need to take the SAT or ACT again! that’s a very good factor that occurred this month. :))))

i do know i haven’t been so present on the twirling pages this spring, and this paper is usually the rationale why; i don’t have time in the course of the week to write down weblog posts, and i have been writing SO MANY WORDS on the weekends that i’ve actually simply been feeling drained more often than not. i hope to do a heck ton of posts this summer time and perhaps document my school process + do extra journal-y varieties of posts?? idk however i actually need to start reading and blogging extra once more !! perhaps the podcast i’m all the time talking about doing will occur…i’ve been feeling so glad and productive this month, even with all the stress of faculty, yet i’m additionally in a weird stage with regards to reading and making content/artwork.


TIME IS PASSING SO QUICKLY???? @time: please cease i’m not ready to be a sophomore ahhhh!! i feel like the months are likely to blend collectively once you’re in class (perhaps also once you’re working), but april didn’t really feel like an excellent distinctive month to me. truthfully, it was a very Okay month – not terrible (although there have been undoubtedly some low points), and not the perfect. however it’s absolutely CRAZY that my freshman yr is going to be over in 2 (TWO!!) weeks! it’s been a wild journey, as i shared with you all

listed here are a few of my highlights:

i participated in a dance present at columbia/barnard! orchesis is such a cool dance group/present as a result of they forged everyone who auditions, and there are lots of people (like me) who have never danced earlier than! the image under isn’t the dance i used to be in, however it was a tremendous hiphop piece that included no tears left to cry, alejandro, and so on!

i additionally visited some new cafes and restaurants, including urban yard (cute but kinda overrated), eileen’s particular cheesecake (also not superb), golden unicorn (excellent dimsum!!), abiko curry (soooo good), blank slate (cute but in addition a bit overrated). food is so a lot better with buddies, and that i’m actually pleased that i received to spend so much time with associates this month 🙂 also, casually going to plug my foodstagram once more HAHA

the climate this month has been fairly nice, and campus has been soooo fairly with all of the flowers blooming! i used to be speaking to a pal about this lately, and we have been each saying that we didn’t understand how much of an effect weather can have on temper till we got here to big apple haha (california, i miss you). though the climate’s been a bit gloomier this past week, i undoubtedly took advantage of the weather last week and took a lot of walks in riverside park!

ALSO, i noticed considered one of my buddies play at carnegie hall!! sososo pleased with her; she was superb! i often don’t take heed to that much classical music, however i actually loved the live performance

easter was also this month! it was really nice celebrating easter with all my pals here, and a few of us had a mini picnic in central park after church. lent is finally over, which suggests i can once once more drink boba and use facebook! i’m really glad that i gave this stuff up for lent, because i feel i now have a considerably healthier relationship with each of them! additionally, i’ve been fairly completely happy that i’ve been capable of spend extra time reading the bible and discussing it with considered one of my buddies 🙂

media consumed


when it comes to music, i used to be listening to a LOT of previous tracks from my childhood. for some causes, i felt a really robust urge to tug out the 90s r&b, the angsty various, and the long-lasting boy bands. (i’m speaking about you, jonas bros & one course!!!!) i also went to a themed soul cycle journey that was JB vs 1D so obviously, i was singing, crying, and sweating. it was the live performance my nine-year-old self all the time needed to go to, but was too afraid to ask my mother and father. T—T

april was ENDGAME MONTH. i acquired my tickets the day they have been launched, however didn’t watch infinity struggle until literally three hours earlier than my ticket time. (and no, i don’t imply rewatch.) for sure, i’ve been very emotional and Marvel Trash. i kinda regret ready this long to binge it unexpectedly; although ready sucks, i really feel like it will be totally different to theorize and anticipate. r/endgamespoilers is saving my life atm.

april was also recreation of thrones month, however i don’t watch recreation of thrones. or somewhat, i didn’t watch acquired. i began it after some convincing and ALL THE GD HYPE. thus far, i’ve completed season one but i don’t assume i’ll binge it fast sufficient to finish by the time the collection finishes. i’m making an attempt my greatest, okay!!! i assumed i might do it, but there are a whole lot of episodes!!!


IT IS ENDGAME TIME AND I HAVEN’T HAD TIME TO SEE IT. so mad about that but i will get to it eventually!!!! i promise!!! no spoilers pls or i’ll cry (no actually i’m so drained from faculty at this level i’ll)

it’s been a huge music month for me. each single day it appears i activate music whereas i’m doing homework and it truly helps me tune out other distractions! i’ve been actually LOVING the soundtrack of Carol (aka my fave film) these days for whereas i am doing english readings, and i lately rediscovered Kishi Bashi as an artist, and i have been listening to him nonstop. he has a very pretty mix of instrumental and various types that i vibe with. the “This is Kishi Bashi” playlist on spotify has been on repeat for, i child you not, the last ten hours.

“In Blue” by declan mckenna came out this month and i used to be SHOOK. he’s my in all probability my most favorite artist, and it’s the first time in a pair years he’s truly released music, so i used to be excited to get new tunes from him! RELEASE THE ALBUM DECLAN.

i additionally made a very specific and extremely random playlist earlier this month for writing my research paper (embedded above). like, there’s Lana Del Ray and sad boi musicTM, but in addition Starships by Nicki Minaj?? that’s the kinda month i’ve been having lol!1!!1 (it’s nice. every part’s high quality!) i additionally began doing a radio present with my good friend for our college’s radio station, and it’s actual good enjoyable– principally just an excuse once every week to take heed to music for an hour and never do homework!! finally, i began listening to The Secret Historical past on audiobook for like half an hour every night time before i fall asleep, and it helps me go to sleep a lot omg. Donna Tartt herself reads the audiobook and it’s superb. would advocate.


as regular, i’ve been listening to a lot of kpop! i just lately really received into txt, a boy group from the same company as bts, and that i’m really excited because i’m truly seeing them next week! also, bts had a comeback, and boy with luv has undoubtedly been caught in my head – such a cute and catchy track

when it comes to issues i’ve been watching, my good friend and that i are watching a drama referred to as contact your heart together – to date, it’s really cute! i also really loved a brand new webdrama referred to as re-feel 🙂

i also read numerous ebooks this month, but i feel i’m dropping a bit of steam – subsequent month in all probability gained’t be as productive when it comes to reading. these are the books i learn this month:

  • heartless – really good!
  • the secret of a heart notice – really loved this one, such a singular concept
  • beneath a painted sky – lovely characters
  • lord of shadows – SO GOOD + terrible cliffhanger omg
  • queen of air and darkness – after LOS, i wanted the sequel instantly, and it didn’t disappoint
  • we’re the ants – really totally different, i enjoyed it!

foresights of might


whereas april was principally chill, might goes to be very busy and productive. listed here are some things occurring:

  • going to yallwest!!! i’m so excited to see all of the ebook pals *cries*
  • then going to maurene goo‘s launch event for somewhere only we know!!! i honestly can’t wait as a result of 1) i liked the e-book 2) it’s in conversation with the ceaselessly 35 podcast 3) my pals tiffany & angela are coming with me and 4) it’s on the last bookstore. HYPED.
  • hooooooping to go to the tread by everlane retailer in downtown LA
  • supporting my fellow bunheads at a ballet competition
  • lots of content material planned!!!!! I’M VERY EXCITED


ok y’all, i did rather a lot this april, but i actually can’t lose steam! might is a vital month for schoolwork, and i want to remain motivated!

  • research for the Latin AP later this month. this can be a massive one, and i actually need to assessment Caesar’s De Bello Gallico bc i haven’t checked out it in over a yr.
  • research for SAT Topic Exams in june. i’m taking Latin and Math 2. great enjoyable. apparently this month includes learning for a lot of standardized exams.
  • run quite a bit, and luxuriate in my previous couple of weeks with teammates who’re seniors. i feel i nonetheless have to work on dwelling within the second and being grateful for the time i have with individuals as an alternative of fascinated with the longer term so much.
  • end priory of the orange tree and perhaps circe. i actually do need to read extra you guys. i’m making an attempt my greatest!!!
  • keep schoolwork and check out my greatest to not slack off/waste time/procrastinate!


i do not know what kind of month might is going to be, however it’s in all probability going to be pretty hectic with faculty wrapping up and every thing! this is what the subsequent two weeks seem like:

  • might 6 – final day of courses
  • might 9 – txt showcase in ny!!
  • might 13 & 15 – finals
  • might 16 – PACK UP MY ENTIRE LIFE
  • might 17 – 8:55am flight again to california (lol) because i make dangerous choice

and after that i just need to chill out a bit for the second half of might haha, i’ll in all probability attempt to spend a lot of time with other buddies who have come back from school! i hope everybody has a tremendous might!

how was your april? tell us within the comments under!!